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Sun, Jul. 9th, 2006, 02:20 pm

So I haven't updated in a long time.

I just don't see the need anymore. What my life is isn't that cool.

I broke up with Tyler. After he threw me down the stairs. Peter ..is around me lately. It's nice and I really like that and I like him but I just can't look at people anymore. I'm heartbroken. I loved him so much and now it's gone. I killed my baby and now she's gone too. Just guessing she's a she. I never will know, will i?

it's cold here. i know it's summer but all I do is wake up, watch tv, eat and listen to my mommy yell. I want love again but I'm scared. I want peter. I love him. He's...nice to me. But I'm not inlove and I don't know if I will be.

that's all.. go back to your normal lifes.

bye.

Sun, Jun. 11th, 2006, 02:37 pm

When did all this happen? Where was I?

Because I feel so lost inside with you
And I'm ripping myself apart.
Where did it go wrong all along?
And why can't I fix this now? Never again.


Tyler and I are done, I guess. And I hate this. It's horrible being alone. I wouldn't wish this on my worst eniemy. I had an abortion and I didn't tell anyone. And he still doesn't want me. Or Peter or Ryan. I've never been this alone. I bet I have but I miss him so much

I'm living with Ellie. Until my Mom stops freaking out.

Back to work. Porn stardom sucks.

Sun, May. 28th, 2006, 11:27 pm

Tyler..I'm so sorry. I love you so much baby and you mean everything to me. You're my rock, you're my everything. I'll never ever say that again. I never wanna leave you, I wanna be yours.

We're back together, if you didn't see it. He stayed here for me. It's like a movie, eh? Love and lover..together. Just hopefully someone doesn't die :/

Ellie and I went to a party last night, good times. She's fun to be around. I got drunk and made out with guys I don't know. Or something, I don't remember anything. And I spendt the night at her house. Hey guys, I'm pregnant.

But yeah..nothing big here. Call me if you want.

Fri, May. 26th, 2006, 02:01 pm

So I hope Tyler like jumps off a building. I don't even care anymore. He's being an asshole to me.

And I like someone else, so everyone else can fuck off. Bye! Go on your stupid baseball tour. I'm done.

Ryan call me. Or Peter. Anyone. I wanna fuck this off, uhh.

Sun, May. 21st, 2006, 10:21 pm

I never update. I'm always too busy or something.

I miss Tyler, he hasn't been around much. And Ryan and Peter. I can mess around too, I'm not all goody good. He thinks he can just own me, so he can go have fun. Well fuck him and fuck that. And Emma is gross. Call me, baby. I have something to give you :)

Sorry it's short, IM me!

signed
bored girl. bored hot sexy wants to fuck girl.

Fri, May. 12th, 2006, 03:15 pm

Not much here. I miss talking to Tyler all the time.

What the hell am I doing with Peter? This isn't good..at all. But I can't back down now.

Looking for some fun, call me. Not that I'm a hooker or anything..that sounded bad. You know what I mean.

Mon, May. 8th, 2006, 12:37 pm

What the hell happened? Why are things coming apart? I was crying when I went to bed and now I'm crying when I got home. Everyone looked all sad and shit at school. No one would tell me why and when I finally talked to someone, they told me what happened. I almosted died. Two people I care about a lot were in a car crash caused my me. I called him. And I distracted him with my begging for him to come back to me. And now Emma lost her baby and it's my fault. I don't like Emma, but I didn't mean to hurt her THAT way.

Jesus. I don't know what else to do...I really don't.

Sun, May. 7th, 2006, 12:39 am

so i never update. oh well.

so tired. so tired of working.

don't ask me about tyler, he doesn't like me anymore i think. that's okay because i don't think i do either. Damn it...fucking CALL ME.

i'm done for tonight, maybe later I'll really update.

Sun, Apr. 30th, 2006, 11:46 am

I'm still here. Kicking and screaming. Tyler and I hung out again, we talked and watched movies then I made him shop with me. Good times. Still don't think it's okay...things with us. I want it to work so much it might be still falling apart.

But anyways...when does summer come? Sigh. Soon, hopefully. I miss Florida.

Sun, Apr. 23rd, 2006, 08:55 am

hey kids. what's shakin? this week was gay lol i didn't see tyler that much. i went to a party last night and he showed up, we left together. I saw Jimmy. It's weird, he never talks to me outside of work. He still likes me...whatever.

so..i like having a boyfriend again :) he keeps doing really sweet things for me. and i love that about him. and he's a good baseball player. he should go pro and makes millions of dollars and marry me so I can be rich too. Cus right now..I'm really really poor.

that's all for today :) i'll be around if you need me

signed,
the girl that loves a boy.

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